Thursday, October 30, 2008


Here is the latest picture of our beauty. I really wanted to write to everyone and tell you guys how much I appreciate your prayers and love in my families behalf. We all know that i am not myself right now at all and won't be for a little while. Postpardum Depression is something very real and something that is very scary. In my case I cannot be alone with my sweet baby or myself for a month. My anxiety and exhaustion recently put me in the hospital for two days. It is scary the thoughts that pass through your mind when you are not all upstairs. I am not but will be soon. The thing that has pulled Aaron and I through this very difficult time is the knowledge that our Savior Jesus Christ died for the thoughts that I have had. Aaron can forgive me for them and I can forgive myself because Christ's sacrifice is sufficient for me. He is very real as is his Father, my LORD. They love me and know what I am going through. The sun has risen in my life again and through the love of sweet husband, my beautiful daughter, my amazing family, and the love of my brother and Father, I will get through this. I will succeed, and I will come out on top. I love you guys more than words can even express and I am eternally in dept to all of you for your fasting and prayers in mine and my little families behalf. God bless all of you!!!

2 comments:

Jessica said...

Rachel,
I am so sorry to hear that you have been struggling. Please call me if you need someone to talk to. I had a friend that had postpartum very badly to the point that she actually had to start taking the medication 1 week before she had her babies. I was lucky and did really well with the first 5 but I struggled REALLY bad with Murphy and it is soooo hard. You can bring your princess over for a visit at the Madsens if you ever need someone to hang out with. I am very serious about that! Good luck and like I said, please call if you ever just want to talk! Jess
You will be in my prayers!

The Brady's said...

Rachel,
Its good to hear you are feeling a little better! You have been in are families thoughts and prayers ALOT! We only want to support and help you in any way possible we love you and Aaron and Oaklee so much let us do anything and everything we can to help you get through this! You will be an Awesome mom I know that! Hang in their we can't wait to see you again We Love you tons!