Difficulties Still Loom

First I just need to apologize for once again using this thing as a journal but I have so many thoughts right now and I feel like someone is listening. Life is so funny. You think that you are super human and invincible and then The Great Man Upstairs decides to bring you back to earth. My dear cousin, I just found out, is suffering from the same liver problems that I suffer from. My whole heart and faith are with him and his family right now. I haven't been sick in a little while and because I have recently been blessed with good health, I have felt invincible. Clearly with life no one is invincible. I have been brought back to the reality and reminded that I am not perfect nor is my health and because of this the Lord can take me at any time. I emphasize His time, not mine. My amazing mom reminded me that all we can do is live like we need to right now and it is what it is. So now, once again after a great reminder, Live it! My health is what it is and no amount of tears and worries will fix that. I have been a great wife, mother, daughter, friend, sister. I am truly happy. I know my Father and Brother live and I have complete faith in their plan. I love my family and my prayers are with my cousin and his family. God Be With You and the doctors treating you.