First comes First...

I feel so tired and frustrated at the mess I have got myself into. You all know that I recently took on a full load of classes and how excited I was about it. I LOVE SCHOOL!!! I love learning. I love being challenged mentally. I love working towards a goal. I love change and progress. When I was not in school I felt like I was sitting stagnant in an ocean full of toys, diapers, and laundry. Now that I have thrown a full school load on top of that, I find myself being the most stressed I have been in years. A homemaker's schedule is chaos and I have over the last year and half developed a new appreciation for all of the women I have ever known that took the mother step before I did. This is hard. This is exhausting. This is stressful. I miss my husband. I miss my baby. I miss a clean house and dinner on the table. I miss no stress. I want to be a wife and mother and now I know that the teacher can wait. I want to support my husband in his work, school, and calling. I want to take my baby to the park and make her laugh. I want to do laundry and not worry about my assignment that is already a month late. I have learned that my family is my first priority and they come first above all and anything. So I hate to say, I am quitting school to pursue the things that are more important to me at this stage of life. School will come later but the happiness of my family comes first now and always will.