Rational Thinking?

I am just flustered right now and I am just going to type and whatever happens to come out is just going to come out, so please no judging me or rebuking me, just listen because I am a pill and that is just what I need right now. My house it hot and a mess. My best friend will never call me back. The ones I love the most live hours away. I want to run but I am bloated and even though I know in the long run working out will pay off, I am bloated right now which makes me feel like my butt is now bigger than it was 2 months ago. So now I really don't want to work out because my butt is big anyways so what is the use. I want a hot dinner but I don't feel like washing the pots to accomplish that hot dinner. I want to buy a house and set down roots like everyone else but I have been blessed enough to move once every year so far in my marriage and to this day still have no idea where I will be and when. I want to go to the temple with my husband but my anxiety and nervousness give me date gut (extremely painful gas that may be accompanied by sickness of the southern region later that night). Sometimes I just want to be mad Damn it!!! And the thing that irks me the most is knowing how easy it is to solve all of my problems. A little kneeling and some Tums. But when I think about that, I get even more mad. I don't want to get off my butt and pray. I don't want to open my scriptures and receive answers to all of my problems. Maybe I want to be as mad as a I think Job should have been but wasn't, that perfect patient son of a gun. Maybe when I go on these stupid rants of "Oh poor me", by the end of them I am so tired of being selfish anyway that I calm myself down enough to get on my knees and thank Heavenly Father for enough stuff to make my house a mess, for the sun that has finally come out and decided to make my house hot, for a best friend to be mad at, for loved ones that live just a few hours away as opposed to no loved ones at all, for a fat butt to run off and wonderful hot dinners that make it fat, for a wonderful rental that if the Lord decided for us to move tomorrow we totally could because we aren't tied to a mortgage, for the potential to always be moving forward with my husbands job and not be laid off all together, for a majority of old people that live where I live and attend the temple at the same time that I would and that are most likely deaf and can't hear my loud gas anyways, and for a very complicated brain that is able to rationalize after an hour of so much irrationality. Okay I feel better now so maybe I will go pray and do some dishes. Thank you for your time that is all.