HOME

I can't tell you how many posts I have started recently and then deleted. Trying to breathe sometimes feels like a burden because it requires thought. I am still trying to process life and the temporal things that keep stunting my eternal progression. I miss simplicity. I miss a calm mind and warm spirit. I miss a whole heart. I miss normality. I know that my progression is only affected because I am letting it be affected. I know that my Savior died not only for my sins but for the sins of every living being and also for the pain, sadness, and anger that I may feel for anything at any given time. So I know that by not letting go I am telling the Lord it wasn't enough. I knew what the atonement was but I have to say that I did not have a burning testimony of it until now. I can honestly say I understand it and I am trying as hard as I can to live it, and to remember it. Forgiveness it mandatory for me to Let it go but if it takes a long time to let it go, do I get credit for trying? I need to bring myself HOME in mind, spirit, and body. How beautiful of a word is home? Not only is it a physical destination but what I am talking about is a state of being. Aaron. Oaklee. Testimony. Temple. Gospel. Scripture. Journal. Prayer. HOME.